Rising country star Logan Crosby is celebrating one year of sobriety and reflecting on the moment that completely changed his life.
“one. f*cking. year. sober. i cannot believe i’m saying that out loud,” he wrote in a new Instagram post.
Crosby then took fans back to one year ago at on September 8th. He recalled waking up face down on the floor at 6:45am, wearing the clothes from the night before, holding a bottle of vodka in his right hand and the lights still on.
“What i didn’t want to do that morning was get up and walk to my bathroom. i didn’t want to look in the mirror. not because i looked bloated and tired. not because i had to figure out which sunglasses would hide the night still sitting in my eyes. that was easy,” he admitted. “The hard part was staring down the mess i had made. looking at someone i truly despised. someone i didn’t know. someone i sure as hell didn’t love.”
He admits this wasn’t a “one-off” occasion it was actually how he was starting most of his days at the time. Except on this morning, something different happened. After he physically woke up, he mentally woke up too and found a glimmer of hope that would change his life.
“Like i said, when i woke up that morning, i was holding an empty bottle of vodka in my right hand. but in my left, i was holding something quieter. something easier to miss. a very small, stubborn piece of hope. and i am very, very glad i didn’t let go of it.
“Once i had done my best to get myself together that morning, i sat on my balcony. coffee in my shaking hands, trying to piece together the night before, the world started to wake up around me. cars driving by. neighbors opening their doors. birds chirping in the late summer air. and that’s when i stopped.”
Suddenly, Crosby was flooded with all the messes he had made over the years as a result of the control alcohol had over him.
“I thought to myself, “there’s gotta be more…i chuckle now, a year later, thinking about that moment on that early September morning. because my goodness… there is so much more.”
From that moment on, the singer/songwriter began his sobriety journey. He notes that the past year has been one of the most “beautiful, meaningful, perspective-shifting, exciting” years of his life. This journey hasn’t been perfect but it’s been real and raw.
“I have cried more this past year than i ever thought i would. not from sadness, but from finally feeling the things i used to numb. seeing my mom. talking to my grandmothers on the phone. hanging out with my dad. taking my baby sister to dinner. watching friends get married. watching people i adore succeed. playing shows. writing songs. building a life that actually means something to me. these moments used to feel like obligations. now they feel like gifts…and i think that’s the biggest change: i don’t feel like i’m surviving my life anymore. i feel like i’m living it,” he admitted.
As he closed out his powerful statement, Crosby thanked everyone who has stood by him, gave him a shoulder to cry on, and encouraged him to continue working towards this new chapter.
“i love you more than i will ever be able to put into words. you helped me hold onto that small piece of hope until it grew into something bigger than i ever imagined.”
Additionally, he passed that encouragement on, promising to anyone else out there who is struggling that “there is a way out, there is more for you than this, you deserve a life you don’t have to escape from.”
He added, “please reach out. take the step. hold onto your piece of hope, no matter how small it feels.”
“Today, i will choose life. and God willing, tomorrow i’ll choose it again. and the day after that. and the day after that. life, life, life — and so much more life. God is so, so good,” Logan Crosby added before signing off with his signature saying, “tell your mama i love her, bye.”
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